As many of you may already know- I’ve recently gotten married. Since the wedding, honeymoon, holidays and moving- I can finally breath… and write. Though life has thrown us some curve balls, the ‘newlywed’ stage has been amazing. It’s not all peaches and cream though- it’s definitely been a roller coaster of emotions with merging two separate lives into one unit. The statement- ‘You never really know someone until you live with them’, has never rung truer. In the past three months, through the highs and lows, I’m excited to say I’ve learned A LOT about my personality. Unfortunately- not all of it is good. But I’m learning nonetheless and The Lord is continuously revealing to me the woman He created me to be. He’s peeling back the layers of selfishness, self-pity, jealousy, pride, and so on. At times, I can become so overwhelmed with all of the things I need to grow in, that I become bitter. This is a scary road to go down. It’s at those times when I’ve learned that I need to keep my eyes on the prize the most- Jesus. I need to pull closer to Him than ever. He is my redeemer, fortress, and heavenly Daddy- whom I can run to whenever, wherever and lay and rest at His feet with no guilt, shame or condemnation.
When thinking about all of the layers of flesh being peeled away- I can’t help but to realize the sanctity of marriage…
While doing a study on Marriage—These words have stuck out to me like a flashing red light, “Could one of the deeper purposes of marriage be to make us confront our own character flaws, the behaviors and attitudes we would never have seen nor faced otherwise? If we allow the challenges of marriage to force us to confront ourselves, we will be applying a spiritual discipline of tremendous value.”
Wow! What a powerful notion! The revelation that marriage was not created for our happiness… but to become more Christ Like in our journey of spiritual obedience.
Though my flesh is screaming on a daily basis, I can feel my spirit man growing. I never realized how selfish I am until now. I never realized how laying down your own wants and needs for the happiness of another, glorifies the Kingdom of God in such an indescribable way. It truly is a blessing when I ‘get it right’. However, those times of ‘getting it right’ are few, and far between. I never realized how vital keeping the Word of God alive in your home and relationships is until now. It’s as if my spirit wants to do good, create an atmosphere of love and peace and flee from all evil, but my flesh is pulling the complete opposite. I am angry at the most minute problem, I find myself upset over nothing, or playing the blame game with my sweet Husband. Why? I have asked myself this question too many times to count over the past three months. It reminds me of what the Apostle Paul said in Romans 7:15, “For I do not understand my own actions. I do not practice or accomplish what I wish, but I do the very thing that I loathe.” This is exactly how I feel in my everyday life and maintaining a spiritually sound home and walking in peace and unity with my Husband. My hope is resting in My Jesus, and the fact that I’ve only been at it for three months—Hopefully with The Lord’s guidance and patience my flesh will dissipate more and more. I’m looking forward to the day where my realm of peace and calm delight is as thick as the sun is bright.
“What if God designed marriage to make us holy more than to make us happy?” Gary Thomas, author of Sacred Marriage.
“Consequently they are no longer two, but one flesh. What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate.” Matthew 19:6
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